A Journey.

A Quick Update.

So, we’ve been in Cairns for nearly a week now, I’m very behind!

I don’t really know what to update, its been a weird week – very chilled. Nothing particularly exciting has happened. There’s not tonnes to do in Cairns, we’ve kind of explored but that’s just involved a lot of eating and some chilling at the lagoon, which by the way is gorgeous.

Sydney took its toll on my body – too much drinking and partying – so it’s been nice to be away from that side of things. However I do feel like people think I am worlds most boring human here, there’s only so many times you can sneak off to bed without people thinking you’re a party pooper. Those who know me, know that I’m actually the complete opposite, I guess I just haven’t felt up to it recently.

I came to Australia because I needed a change, I needed to ‘find myself’ and that in itself is a weird journey to go on. I have always been very free-spirited and independent but I’ve always had the support of my family to go back to when I’ve needed it. The first three months of my time here I was a lone wolf, I had my new pals but essentially I was on my own, I made it work – I loved it. As Ben and I have got closer, I guess I’ve had more of a sense of home – I have that security again (if I need it). In a weird way, because of this, the last few weeks have been hard for me, I’m missing home more than ever.  I’ve never had to really make friends, obviously I have friends, but my siblings and cousins are my best friends which makes being away from them even harder. And plus, at home I have 5 mums I can go cry to if I need to, but here I’ve not and that’s been a big thing for me to over come.

Don’t get me wrong, I have Ben and he’s been amazing with my (sometimes) bratty behaviour – but at the same time – he probably misses home too and is travelling himself so I don’t want to put too much pressure on him. If I really really need to, I will have a little break down to him but I don’t want to rely on him, I want to rely on me so I can grow. I think I’m doing a pretty good job.

Aside to all this, there’s not one part of me that wants to go home. I’m having the best time and I’m so excited for our adventures ahead. Our main focus now is to find farm work and to start ASAP, it’s proving difficult but at the same time I love the uncertainty, it makes life a little less boring. We’re just taking every day as it comes and making memories as we go.

 

xoxo

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A Journey.

A New Adventure.

So, I could reel of a load of excuses as to why I haven’t written in a while but it would be pointless. In all honesty, I’ve just been living my life and focusing on myself – something I should have started doing a long time ago.

For those of you reading who don’t know, I moved to Sydney in February  on a working holiday visa – an adventure I had wanted to go on for as long as I can remember. It has got to be the best thing I have ever decided to do, a complete breathe of fresh air. I have met so many like minded people and being in a completely different environment has done me the world of good.

Back at home, I felt like I never really fitted in, I was on a completely different page to my friends, a different chapter, one no where near as advanced. I just sort of float through life, no idea what the hell is going on while they’re all settling.

This often got to me, I wondered why I didn’t want to settle and why I wasn’t ready but coming here has put it all into perspective. I couldn’t be happier.

I’ve been lucky enough to meet some of the most incredible souls during my time in Sydney, we’ve had more fun than you could ever imagine, making memories for life.

Now it’s time for the next adventure, with the most beautiful human I have ever met.

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A Journey.

Adventure.

This blog is as much of a journey for me as it is for anyone that wishes to follow. I am writing about things that are significant to my life at the moment and what I am doing to get the best out of it.
I am a strong believer in ‘everything happens for a reason’ – I think, in life, the things that don’t work out how you wanted/expected aren’t meant to be, at least not at that moment in time anyway.
When things don’t work out, other things fall in to place.
I was adamant I would be able to cope emotionally with the anniversary of my dads death but in fact, like I mentioned before, I broke, I lost myself, I lost my way. I’m not complaining though, I needed it.. sometimes a little self-destruct is needed to self-discover.
I needed to fall in love with me again.
I’ve always wanted to go travelling but l I kept saying ‘next year, next year’ I had a sudden urge and didn’t want to wait until next year so back in November I jetted off to Bali on my own for 2 weeks of adventure!
It wasn’t part of my plan, but it made me feel something, I can’t quite explain it but all I know is, it made me smile. It made me want to get up in the mornings to make the days go quicker, it bought back my spark.
Some people may think of it as running away from my feelings and I guess in a sense that was initially what I wanted to do, but I wasn’t , I was simply removing myself from my natural surroundings to build myself up again in order to deal with things that I hadn’t felt mentally strong enough to deal with over the past few months.
I’m not saying pack up all your stuff if you’re having a bad time, but I’d definitely recommend stepping out of your comfort zone. I feel like getting into a routine can become a little tedious, almost draining. Waking up and doing the same thing every day gives you nothing to look forward to, unless of course you are lucky enough to have a job you love.
I met the most incredible people while being away and experienced some breath taking things. I laughed continuously, I found me again, as cliche as that sounds.

Being home has made me realise what really matters in life and what I really want to do.
I can’t wait for more adventures.

 

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Self Love

It’s all about you.

Sometimes, life can just get a little too much and that’s completely ok. I think everyone needs a little time to reflect once in a while. People deal with things in different ways and it may be that you haven’t found yours yet but it will come. I’ve had a think of some things I like to do when I feel I need some time to gather my thoughts so here they are –

1. Talk to someone – Whether it’s someone professional, a friend or a family member, it’s completely down to you. Getting things off your chest is a must, no matter how unnatural it might feel. Never feel ashamed. I myself have been to counsellors, on a number of occasions and at the time it was definitely the right thing for me to do. It taught me that I do in fact need to open up and deal with my problems and that the majority of people, have problems too. It’s always good to hear other people’s opinions and it’s always good to know that you have people that support you. People want to help and they will.

2. Surround yourself with loved ones – I so often hide away from people and ok, it helps for a little while but not in the long run. I get to a point where I start to feel isolated and only have myself to blame. It’s good to have some alone time and enjoy your own company but make sure you take up the opportunity to spend that much needed quality time with the people who care for you the most.

3. Don’t believe everything you see on social media – Social media is, in my opinion, a huge contribution to unhappiness. People only seem to post the good parts of their life, for obvious reasons, but it can often make you feel like you aren’t as successful/happy as them. You have to remind yourself there is more to their lives than what they show. I only have Instagram myself and I only follow people i personally know, no one famous etc, else I would spend my life being miserable and wondering why I can’t have the same life. Remind yourself that there are probably people looking at your social media and thinking you have the best life ever.

4. Start a hobby – Ok, this one I haven’t actually stuck to, mainly down to the fact I just haven’t made time for it but I definitely think it’s a must. It’s always good to do something you enjoy, it releases happy hormones and you can shut off the world for a short time while completing it. You don’t even need to leave the house if you don’t want to, you can literally do anything from crafts to ice skating. If you have a passion for something, why aren’t you doing it?? Anything is possible if you put your mind to it.

5. Look after yourself – Every now and again you need to have a little unwind and just focus on you. Once a week, put an hour or two aside and have a little pamper. Have a nice bath as opposed to a shower, put a hair mask in, apply a face mask and just chill. It’s good to have some time to just relax and it definitely releases some of the unwanted tension throughout the week. Sometimes I even just paint my nails to feel a little more human!

Remember, you are not alone. There’s so many people around you that love you and so many different ways to look after yourself.

I hope you enjoyed reading this, if you have any suggestions feel free to share them.

Believe in yourself.

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